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It’s taken me some time to process this. Perhaps I just thought too much of my teaching prowess, my ability to connect with my students, my ability to get even the most problematic of students to engage at least somewhat with the material.  Perhaps I spent too much time in the affective mode rather than the content itself. Perhaps…  “Perhaps” leaves big gaps without providing concrete answers.  The end result was a disastrous classroom moment which included an impromptu visit from an administrator. Disastrous.

As an experienced educator I find it hard to reconcile, rationalize, or justify that period of time. On the other hand, after surviving the next class period unscathed, I doubt the students have thought again about it. Perspective.

“Things” happened in class that day: nothing illegal, no real violence, no one was physically hurt.  Detentions could have been written. I could easily have pushed for even more than that with a couple of students. This hasn’t been done. I’d like to say that this hasn’t been done “yet,” but discipline should be immediate. Should.

The actual events or actions don’t seem to matter.  What matters are two things; 1, the professionalism on my end and 2, the student reaction.  Personally, I never yelled. I did question their motivation and thoughts, but never yelled or cursed.  My ability to manage a classroom comes into question, especially if this is the only view this particular administrator will ever have in that classroom (if it is, then that is an entirely separate discussion to have). The student reaction, however, is certainly notable as well.  Before the end of the week, I had numerous, unsolicited letter and Facebook posts of apology. A star football player personally apologized with tears in the corners of his eyes. The one “Problematic” student that most teachers have already given up on said that not only did I not deserve what went on, but more so because I give him chances that no one else does. Reaction.

There are still issues to address on my end: the catalyst to the classroom disaster, my future preparations and plans, my response to the administrator.

What I want to remember most, however, is ‘how’ the students apologized.  Perspective.

“we are selfish, ignorant, don’t realize the power of our actions, feel a need to stand out, don’t understand most things that happen, get frustrated easily and take it out on others, often forget that teachers have feelings, and we take a lot that we are given/have for granted.
And yet you still put up with us which I find amazing and I think that you are a gift from God and that putting up with us makes you a better person than most. Thank you for being an awesome, kick-butt teacher”

 

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